fading_dreams, I know how stressful it always is to start school, meeting new friends, new ppl.. Why do you feel like friends are abandoning you if I may ask? You don't need to answer.. just was wondering about why you feel that way..
What will happen if you don't get into this play? But yet, maybe you will.. you don't know.. I love plays and was in drama in school.. I know it may seem like a life and death matter to you right now.. but maybe you need to take a little time since starting school is major stress and get settled first so that extra pressure isn't put up on you? If you feel up to it, go for it.. but if something happens, please hon, don't hurt yourself.. there will be other opportunities, I know.. Life can be full of disappointments and when one is dealing with stress as you stated, and I don't mean to be sound awful here.. sometimes one doesn't do their best.. so if you go out for this play and I am not sure what time zone you are in.. it may have happened already.. I hope that you get the part but in the meantime.. will this send you over the edge? Since starting school is major stress and what you stated about your friends?
I am not trying to discourage you at all.. but then there may be major stress added on to your other stressors getting use to going to school and meeting new ppl and getting settled.. just a thought... learning your lines, concentrating, etc. go for it if you think you can handle it but if it is going to lead you to hurting yourself, and I hate to say it, then maybe let this one go.. ?? I know that is difficult.. you need to take care of yourself first.. I know and have been there often myself in the past only to be let down because I didn't do the best I knew I could do because of the stress I was under.. and feeling self-destructive.
I love plays and acting.. music.. what play is it? Okay, worst case scenario, if something happens and you don't get it.. safety plan.. don't hurt yourself, pls talk to us or somebody that you trust.. best case.. you will get the role.. just remember that there will be other plays to audition for also when you are more settled.. some ppl work better under stress, I know.. and others may not... please don't take that as a rejection at all but take care of yourself. And it doesn't mean the reflection on you that you aren't good at it.. First day of school can be very stressful and new ppl.. going back to my concern, if you don't mind, why do you think your friends are abandoning you?
I hope for the best for you and that you will be able to get through this.. I hope it all works out for you.. Do the best you can.. rememember there are many actors/actresses today who are famous but were told in the beginning that they would never amount to anything at all at acting.. It is good to know that. you are not alone in this field.. just because if something happens, doesn't mean that you aren't good at all.. Just do the best you can but don't overload yourself, okay? And please don't hurt yourself either.. there will be many other opportunities for you.. easy for me to say.. yeah.. I know.. and hard to realize.. you will do fine.. but don't overload yourself.. I am an overachiever and I have done the same thing.... Let us know what happens and talk to us.. I believe in you and know you can do it.. but I also know you are under alot of stress it sounds like at the same time... so I hope you will talk to us.. and continue talking to us..or feel free to PM me anytime.. Good Luck and break a leg as they say!! Just try to remember not to get in over your head too because that sets one up for hurting themself.. have been there many times.. myself.. Lean on us to help you through.. and talk you through it..
Love
Gitana