I should be happy with my life. I am married and a mom and close to finishing my doctorate degree. But I am so overwhelmed. I feel like I am going to lose my mind and keep thinking about ending things. I am so tired and the only person I have told about how I feel, like there is no way out of the stress, doesn't take me seriously (my husband). I have loaded mu gun and sat with it but haven't been able to go through with it. I feel so alone and so tired of fighting what seems to be an endless uphill battle. I have overcome abuse and my husband's alcoholism and I just have nothing left. No one sees or cares.