Is it normal for someone to want to go back to being younger. I want to go back to when I was 16, in child services and in school. I want to go back to being a 'child'. I want people to treat me like i'm still young and senseless. I want people to care for me like they did then. I want someone to take me back in time so that I can experience everything all over again. I want to go back to the adolescent unit with all my old friends. I want people to say, ''oh, she's only young''. I don't want to be an adult because it makes me feel like i'm alone in my thoughts, trapped inside my head. I want people to take me seriously, just like they did back then. I want people to see that I still feel bad. I want to cut my arms and show others. I want to shout out, scream out that I want people to care. I want to feel safe and secure again. I guess that now i'm 20 people care less. I'm an adult now so I shouldn't behave in such ways now. I shouldn't cut my arm anymore, I should be over the voices that I hear, I shouldn't feel suicidal, I should be able to cope now that i'm older.. but I can't and people can't seem to see that. I want to go back to 2004 so badly that it hurts when I think about it. I was young then, I had everybody caring for me. It couldn't be any less like that now. I'm alone and nobody cares anymore.