I have the urge to run a razor blade down my arm right now. I have so many emotions bottled up inside me right now. I'm irritable, angry, frustrated, depressed, antsy. Suicide is against my religious beliefs so I don't think I can go through with it. But the temptation is getting so strong to hurt myself. Maybe I just want to cause myself some kind of physical pain so it takes my mind off of the emotional pain I am feeling. The worst part is I don't know why I am feeling this way. My moods have been all over the place lately. I saw a counselor last week but he acted like I didn't need to be there or he couldn't help me. But he's my last option. I can't really explain why. That's just the impression I got from him. I can't even get myself to cry. I can feel the tears in the backs of my eyes but they just won't come out. I feel so numb. I can't take it anymore!!! :sad: