It's stupid. But anytime I accidentally inflict pain on myself (such as accidentally hitting the screw when opening the door to get into the dining hall) I want more of it. When I'm feeling down the feeling is worse. I'm afraid I won't be able to keep myself from doing it if I'm having a really low period. Almost wasn't able to last night. :/ It scares me. But I want to cut so bad sometimes. Even though I promised I wouldn't.