I wish I could just buy a buddy I could hang out with..... I'm so not looking forward to this up coming year. it seems like all my really good friends leave me either moving away or filling there time with a significant other. I don't mind spending time with couples I just hate how my BF's the one who know my inner self, the ones who use to come to me with everything, the ones I use to know all of their insecurities no longer come to me. they now have significant others who they go to. I see them leaving me, they only invite me to be polite. why? am I not as good? am I just no longer needed? why do I not have the same place in their lives? I still consider myself there friend but.... its just not the same. I want a deep rich friendship and I don't know I just don't feel like I have that... I miss them. their so close right beside me sometimes but I'm still alone... I WANT MY FRIENDS BACK!!!! its not fair... I haven't done anything.