i was up on the phone all last night for hours telling my girlfriend she was beautiful, needed to eat, was worthy of love, was talented, everything. i asked if she believed me. she said yes. but now shes saying that the whole time on the phone she was shaking her head and saying no. i know this is her depression/ED's fault and not hers or mine, but i feel really betrayed and upset. i thought i was helping her. but i was only wasting her time. she always tells me i have reasons to live but she doesnt. i dont want to hear i have reasons to live if shes dead. she said she would keep our promise and not harm herself but now im not sure if she even kept that. i want her to know that if she keeps holding on she will find joy in things again. she will find reasons to live. i dont know, i have so much faith in her. i know she is strong, but its more than that; she reminds me of myself a few years ago. i know she can make it through this because i did. but she cant do it alone.