was it worth me staying alive? due to a member on here telling my family, the member pretty much stopped me from killing myself. but was it actually worth it tho? i mean so far all thats happened in my life is the bank bollocking me even more, had a blazing arguement with my mum again, and now im ill :sad: where as if i killed myself a few days back i wouldnt be suffering today wud i? why do ppl want me alive wen its CLEARLY obvious that my life is fucking SHIT, ive gotta go see my doctor 2morrow morning, and if its gonna be like anything like the last time, its gonna make my life even more shit, my sister and her b/f took me out last nite to this playzone thing, it was student nite, i made up an excuse as to why i couldnt go in, but the real reason was is cuz im so fucking numb i couldnt feel anything, i even went into the toilets and cut my wrists a lil (not to kill myself) and i didnt even feel the razor blade cut the skin ffs :sad: every fucking day i have to put a front on so ppl asume im getting better, i laugh at jokes, i mess around with my friend, but all i want to do is break down and cry :sad: why cant ppl just leave me alone, stop caring about me, dont talk to me, LEAVE ME ALONE, let me die!