Hmm i dont really know why im on here right now sometimes i just find myself on here. Just really need to talk... so im sorry if i bore you. Things r still pretty crappy and i cant be bothered with things but im just rlly trying to hang in there and take each day as it comes. Which isnt so good if im not having a good day but oh well. Live 4 the good days i suppose Sometimes i really just want it to be over with and other times i just get really scared. If i did it i would probably overdose on tablets, but it sounds silly, i have a really bad phobia of sick and i was wondering if it makes you sick before u actually die? I guess sometimes thats what holds me back.