He and i am practically the same person, we're so alike it's weird, so much so that we can tell what the other is gonna say next, and we like all the same things. You get the point. Anyway we started talking about how we were both erased from our families for the same reason, being gay, and the circumstances that lead up to it. I'm even talking about that, there is so much more to me than my fucking sexuality. He kept telling me, i need to get over being angry, and accept them the way they are, and who they are, and that i would feel better. I can't do that, not after all i had to go through. He pushed the subject so hard, that i started crying. Now i can't get all this shit out of my head, and i can't stop crying, i feel awful. I'm really volatile and i don't want to take it out on someone else, so i just know i'll end up taking it out on myself. I know how i am, even if i say i'm not going to, i will get all anxious and panicy and forget what i said, and do it anyway. I just want to take this xxxx, and all of my xxxxxxxxx and go to sleep, and not wake up.