I had a doctors appointment yesterday for the pregnancy and while getting checked in, the nurse started going through some questions. One of the questions that were asked was suicidal thoughts. I admitted I was having thoughts recently. Once the questions were done, I noticed they kept switching out nurses to sit with me in the room. I caught on they weren't going to leave me alone in the room while waiting for the doctor due to the suicidal thoughts. They did eventually tell me why later on. I got worried I was going to get admitted. Once the Dr came in to talk with me, I reassured her I was fine. I told her I been talking myself out of the thoughts and everything. I told her I'm trying to avoid going back inpatient. She understood. She asked if I couldn't talk myself out of it, if I would contact her or 911. I told her I would but honestly, I don't think I would call or contact anyone. I just didn't want to be admitted. I just don't want to let anyone down.