What is it with me , aaarrrggghhhhhhhhhhh , I came here in may reeling from my 20 yr marriage breaking up in march - what did i do ? became great friends with many of u guys - that I would nt change .
Howeverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr what else happened 'Joey ' thats what , was i looking to complicate my life or someone elses - nope not at all but thats exactly what happened - we both got hurt and now poor Joey is in contact with me by phone only while he soets himself out and is staying away from sf altogether at the moment :blink:
So now the last 4 weeks , did i ask to meet anyone else noooooo , but i met a nice guy , he has closely persued me and asked me to 'see' him on a different level - i quite liked him , but something was stopping me :unsure: and yea rightly so ..........despite his daily phonecalls and bombarding me with romantic texts i have now challenged him and discovered ...............
yes HE'S BLOODY WELL MARRRIED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAARGGHHHHHHHHHH , am i really that worthless , i wasnt even looking , why bother with me , why feed me ur bullshit , im sick of it , being nice and forever seeing the good in everyone - that wont change its my personality type , but as for reltionships ........PPPFFFFFFT , I could nt hold it together after 20 yrs with the love of my life mainly bc of my chemically knackered up brain , so why would i even dream there will ever be anyone else , Im alone , me and the kids and it can stay that way - they re all ill ever need .
Sorry for the rant just sick of life doing me over
safe yea
Jo
Howeverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr what else happened 'Joey ' thats what , was i looking to complicate my life or someone elses - nope not at all but thats exactly what happened - we both got hurt and now poor Joey is in contact with me by phone only while he soets himself out and is staying away from sf altogether at the moment :blink:
So now the last 4 weeks , did i ask to meet anyone else noooooo , but i met a nice guy , he has closely persued me and asked me to 'see' him on a different level - i quite liked him , but something was stopping me :unsure: and yea rightly so ..........despite his daily phonecalls and bombarding me with romantic texts i have now challenged him and discovered ...............
yes HE'S BLOODY WELL MARRRIED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAARGGHHHHHHHHHH , am i really that worthless , i wasnt even looking , why bother with me , why feed me ur bullshit , im sick of it , being nice and forever seeing the good in everyone - that wont change its my personality type , but as for reltionships ........PPPFFFFFFT , I could nt hold it together after 20 yrs with the love of my life mainly bc of my chemically knackered up brain , so why would i even dream there will ever be anyone else , Im alone , me and the kids and it can stay that way - they re all ill ever need .
Sorry for the rant just sick of life doing me over
safe yea
Jo