honestly, sometimes i think that asking others for help is just a waste of time. no one really bothers with me so its like i shouldn't even care what happens to me,right? but i've taken a lot of thought lately, and honestly lately, i'm finding myself getting better but yet worse. right now, i'm trying to tell myself that i am not fat and that i need to eat more than a few items a day. also, i am always trying to tell myself that i am pretty. even iGod sez that i'm pretty LOL see? i laughed. that's for the better. for as for the worst.... i'm still lonely. i still exist in this world without any real purpose, but that's okay i guess. i mean, we are not all smart or quick at everything. just not everyone is meant to make and discover new inventions or that sort of thing. sometimes, really, the only impact we can make in our lives, is with the people around us. i know that its hard to believe that i'm important or useful or something like that, but if God won't let me die, then that must mean that i must have some use. i'm always being used by people so i guess that's the life i am meant to have right now. maybe later, i will have some other purpose in life? anyway, it doesn't matter what i think considering most people don't bother with me so i guess the best that i can do is post some crappy thread and hope that someone actually bothers.