I've been looking for a suicide text-line but I've had no luck finding one... This forum is the best I can do for now. I find it more comfortable doing it this way. Story is, my life is actually not so bad. I've got a caring family and good friends. It's just I find life so pointless. To me, humanity is at a stand still and is inevitably doomed. I just want to end it. Also, even though I've got good family and friends. I don't reciprocate with the emotions they deserve. For example, I'm first generation Canadian and there's this language barrier between my parents. Also my sibling are decades apart. The only thing I have to live for is my little sister whom isn't that close to me. My whole life moving around the country, I've understood that "friends come and go" and the friends I have now were the longest I've been friends with. However, lately there has been fallouts... I don't know who my real friends are. On top of that I lost the love of my life. A lot of people suggest, "you're young and you'll find someone else." This may be but I'm stubbornly in love with this girl. I think I may have some mental illness but haven't seen a doctor about it yet. Basically, my life is coasting and I have plans to end it but I wonder when I will actually end it.