all my life i've always ben put to blame for everything that goes wrong or something that disappears. i live with 6 members of my family n it's always me. for 21 years, should i have got use to it? today it happened again. i tried not to let it bother me. but here i am depressed with thoughts to jus end it already. i have no one to run to. maybe time is gettin closer. maybe this fawked up ass life should jus be put to rest for good.