I think I'm too far gone. I live in a little shell. I'm completely isolated from anyone I've ever called a friend. I've been in institutions and taken drugs and nothing has helped. I am definitely worse than ever. I am literally scaring the neighbors. They think I am a potential axe murderer or something. It's really hard to return to society when you are this far gone. I really can't stand to think about myself, but I really have nothing else to do. I feel like I am already dead.