We can and do struggle and suffer everyday with mental illness as brutal as it is! Or we can choose to take our lives. I honestly and constantly think of a reason to go on living everyday. I live in hell right now as far as I am concerned. The main thoughts I have is what happens when we die? Do we go to hell? Do we just end up dead and no spiritual after life? I consider myself an Agnostic. I believe there might be a God but I don't know until it is proven to me. Anyways the only reason I'm still alive is I do have a fear of the unknown.