Hi DayDreamerStratus,
You do sound lonely. Love can be that way, be it's not supposed to be. I too carried on in a long-distance relationship off and on for many years. It was excruciating at times. Have you had a discussion together about this subject? Looking back, I'm sure I was dodging my own identity by putting too much emphasis on her and that relationship when I should have been seeking the destiny that God had waiting for me. I'm older now, but am finally realizing what I was put here to do. The list is rather long, but I would never have discovered it nor would have embarked on the journey if it hadn't been for surrendering control to the unconditional and most powerful love of God. I know it might sound cheezy or cliche', but the truth has never been so real or so obvious for me. I'm curious, how did you become so involved with someone who is in such turmoil about their gender and/or identity? What do you think would be the best way for you to help him? Do you think that you are better with him, or without him (long distance or not)? I believe that prayer changes things, and that God not only hears and answers prayer, but that He is all-loving, and all knowing (He knows what we need before we even ask!) Do you think that you might be able to seek His help with this and/or with other trouble spots in your life? When I finally did, it changed everything. And everything is still getting better. I'll pray that you find the man that you are meant to find, and that you realize your destiny.