Lately, my body has been getting worn down. I'm more exhausted and drained and sadly, I feel my body has been having enough. Already having low blood pressure and being so drained emotionally and physically. Had a scare in the past and came close to death. I just been thinking without me doing anything, I feel my body may just give out some time soon and I have no idea if I can stop it and I have been accepting the fact, it may happen. I feel sad. I already have no hope in anything anymore. Maybe my time is almost up anyways, I don't know. I try not to think about it but when my body feels this way, I can't help but think "maybe....." I thought about writing a letter to my family (not a suicide note ) just in case and even asking my husband's best friend who does psychiatry if he can make sure my family will be okay and if he can watch out for them. Just these thoughts of possible death has been filling my mind lately. I just been so exhausted and more drained each and every day.