Webs/DID/Soon to be dead

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by lost_child, Nov 23, 2007.

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  1. lost_child

    lost_child Well-Known Member

    Confirmation I am DID to keep it simple as I can:

    I have 6 year old Satans Doll/child, everything is red, she cries, she cries and cries. She is violent, she is gobby, she seeks attention.

    I have Rambo, he's agreesive, violent, very very very very angry. he will fighr with everyone, including you. No one scares him. He wants respect and to gain it, he has to be violent.

    I have Charlie, charlie is 13 years old. She's a loner, she self harms, she's suicidal and she's looking for love at any cost.

    Lost child is just that, she's lost. She is there, but I don't know how old she is, I've not connected with her, she's needy, she cries, she wants love, attenion, she want a mother, a father, she wants to be held, she wants to be loved. She sucks her thumb, she rocks.

    I have angel, angel is my inner...she's caring, loving, and very powerful and strong but she fears the others and stays away.

    then, there's plan old boring me Jody. She works, she cleans, she helps people.

    I don't know how to control them, I've only recentely started noticing when one I'm one of the alters, although my counsellor says she knows when there with me. We are going to discuss this more next week.

    DID is dissociative Identify disorder, the disorder part determins how severe or not you have it. For example, I lose alot of time, I can talk to people but I won't recall the conversation, I can argue, I have se* with strangers but won't remember, or I end up in places unaware where I am or why I'm there. Then there's time I can drive, I known I have driven but I haven't taken in the information..that's the disorder part, because your life is in disorder.

    I have lost alot of friends and family because of this, and I know I will lose the few people left as I'm switching more and more at the moment. So I will lose everyone.

    People don't understand, I don't understand.

    I am trying to live with this, one person is enough but having alters is making day to day life impossible for me. I'm not going to kill myself today, no worries there. She has written her date, her time and her letters so today, I will live, tomorrow I will live. but I can't say the date and time when all of us die.
     
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