Ok, I don't know what I'm feeling. I just sliced into my arm because I wanted to see blood but I'm not really suicidal or depressed. At least no where near the levels that I've had. It's been 5 months since I last did that but I just want to keep going and do some more cuts. I don't know what I'm feeling, it's just anger and boredom and loneliness and numbness. It's like I've just gotten so used to the shit that is my life that I no longer feel anything. I just want to see the blood and feel the minor pain, just so I feel something. Fuck, why am I so weird?