I've been thinking about when I committed suicide around two years ago. There was a lot going on, 2 friend deaths, a shitty landlord who always overcharged me by 400-700 a month in rent for a place infested with pet urine which I had to pay after moving in to be cleaned, my management was screwing with me, with all this I'd normally charge it head on, but what set me over was a girl breaking my heart, the player got hurt lol. I've been past all that for a long time now but the part that has me stuck is that I'm perfectly fine after my attempt, no damage. I remember the day I was alone, I tried to drink <Mod edit, WildCherry: Methods>, it foamed all the way down my throat, and then tried to hang myself, I remember I drank a cap full, and I remember looking around my bathroom as I took a deep breath. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>. My body struggled, eyes bulged, tunnelvision started, saw stars then I slowly blacked out, memories literally faded in front of me, things I even forgot about then it went black. Then I snapped awake gasping and I was already pulling the belt off. It felt like I was out for awhile, but I don't think I was. All I know is my legs were weak as Hell and shakey, what scared me the most was the belt latched, and it just kind of slapped me straight. I got it loose then I walked around my house, threw up the alcohol. besides the bruising I was ok and I've been fine since. I'm not and never have been a depressive person I was just torn and tired, I rethought the situation like I normally would do and moved on. But I've read reports about brain damage, and neck damage, seeing where I could have been. My neck does feel a little different, like kinda crooked sometimes, but like I said, I'm perfectly fine. Sorry I kinda rambled but I just wanted to get this off my chest. If suicide crosses your mind, rethink it. Nothing scares me, but death did.