sitting here all alone and thinking about my life. So many questions that I can't answer myself, will it get better? Even a better one, Will I ever be able to achieve some sort of happiness in my life and be able to break free a little bit from my issue sand this depression. I often wonder these things and if it's even worth going through it daily. I am not able to go out much because of my social anxiety and don't hold a lot of friendships because I have abandonment issues and I have some trust issues. Sometimes I just want to be alone at home in my own isolation. I can't go out a lot only for work and that's about it, I have parents that are controlling and are too involved in my life where I can't do much. Can't talk on the phone without being told who it is or them listening in, can't have my rooms door closed without it being burst open without being knocked on and can't go out without being asked about a handful of questions... is there really any point in me being here? will i find my happiness by leaving? the only sole reason that I see me staying is so that I don't hurt the ones in my life that I care about and that they care about me. Other than that I'm numb to most emotions half of the time and I am dead on the inside. Anyone have any insight or advice they can give me?