i am sorry i pushed others away. i cant do it can i?? i cant help when they are hurting.. i cant ease their pain. expressive_child i am sorry i just cant do it anymore.. you wont let me back into your life.. you say you just does not matter and that you were alone and still alone.. hun you was never alone... i am sorry hun.. i love you and i miss talking to you but if i cant make you understand that i care for you deeply then what good does it even do for me to even be here...?? you saved me but i cant save you??? that is just so wrong. i do hope you get to read the thread to you.. i meant every word from the bottom of my heart.. i guess i will go now.. just got to go on into this other dimisional place, heck it cant be all that bad.. take care everyone.. white dove loves all of you but white dove cant come here and be happy and cheerful when white dove knows that her pressence may upset someone dearly to her heart.. white dove is not here to hurt anyone..