So hi. This seems like a great community, and just what i need. I've only felt truly suicidal once, but it certainly could happen again. I truly enjoy life, even with all of it's problems; all of my urges have stemmed from self-hate and shame (amd fear of what i may be capable of), but i'm young, i'll grow. A place like this is great to me because no one has any clue that i've ever been the slightest depressed in the corporeal world. So thank you all.