I didnt think I would be here today. Not that I have been suicidal lately because I havent. But looking back on these past 4 years I am amazed and yet saddened at all that has transpired. Today I turn 46 years old. I wonder, when I turn 50, if this forum will still be here, or if I will come here to post how I made it thru another 4 years. So far 2012 has been rough for me, healthwise. I have been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and hypertension. At one point I really thought that the high blood pressure thing was gonna take me out. I have been finding myself thinking of the past lately. I know my life in a lot of ways is better today than it was then, but in some aspects it's worse. And I find myself seriously wondering where me and my family will end up by this time next year. Anyway...so it's my birthday...no one seems to notice..oh I do get those happy birthday comments on FB from friends that would otherwise not post on my page. So that's something.