I'm sorry guys. I thought I was in bad shape when I went to bed but now after I woke up I feel like I've gone even lower. I can't handle it anymore. Its just over for me. I thought I had beat the urge to die for good, but now its back and worse than it ever was. I don't think I'll be around another week. I just don't want to fight anymore. I'm just pathetic. Here I am crying at work... I guess i'm just too weak.