A shitty break-up with the first guy i ever dated, and lost my virginity to has forced me back here. He pretty much cheated. I don't know exactly if he did but he's with another girl already and asked her out two days after we broke up, so... I don't know what to do. Find someone else fast? I have no connections to anyone really. The guys at work are all to young for me, which is the mistake i made with the other guy. I don't even know what to write. I'm just babbling. I'm staying on my medication but it feels like they just stopped working. Coping with stuff never comes easy for me. I really think suicide is how it'll all end for me. When my mom dies, it's over for me.