For those who've followed my saga over the last year....it is over...I was terminated yesterday effective March 2nd...it was done by assistant city manager while new director was out of town....she comes back Thursday...seeing union person this am to learn what options are...as therapist thinks should look into medical leave if an option so not there...but part of me wants to leave the mess I call my office in half way decent shape...and to top it off I have to work Saturday and Sunday at historic house...as my professional integrity wont allow me to do anything different...will finish up two tasks while there...and then consider what else should do...
Going from feelings of relief for it to be over, anger that this has all happened, and overwhelming feelings of depression/anxiety...then denial...basically all over the map I guess...still no tears as I never cry however much I want to...
Husband is being as supportive as he can be...he canceled all loan arrangements etc. for house we were set to buy as had thought a more optimistic corner had been turned with new director...but there is the financial reality that as the primary breadwinner I have to get a new job...figure out health insurance...figure out best options and start a new page of this journey of my life with no road map for the first time in my life---in the end I guess I am terrified to be honest---
Going from feelings of relief for it to be over, anger that this has all happened, and overwhelming feelings of depression/anxiety...then denial...basically all over the map I guess...still no tears as I never cry however much I want to...
Husband is being as supportive as he can be...he canceled all loan arrangements etc. for house we were set to buy as had thought a more optimistic corner had been turned with new director...but there is the financial reality that as the primary breadwinner I have to get a new job...figure out health insurance...figure out best options and start a new page of this journey of my life with no road map for the first time in my life---in the end I guess I am terrified to be honest---