I cut myself yesterday while alone in the house. Haven't told anyone other than here and don't intend to. I could tell my therapist but what's the point? oh and she's not really a therapist, more like a free counselor at a DVC It's the first time I've done it at all in months, and the worst episode in over a year. The funny thing is I don't even know why it happened that day, of all days. I wasn't particularly upset, at least consciously. I was even in a good enough mood to sing to myself a bit. It felt like a ritual, like it was just suddenly the 'right time' to be doing such a violent thing to myself. I must have been dissociating, at least a little bit. I don't even remember making the decision, just that I picked up the blade.