after everything i've suffered through and struggled with finally i can't escape the toll and the price....my minds beginning to snap......
everything feels wrong.....dead when i look at it even things look different darker paler more dead i've tried to escape from reality as much as possible but those that dont understand keep trying to drag me back like it is what's best for me and now my only escape is temporarily gone and i'm left to think
of course as soon as that happened i instantly started thinking and lo and behold i self harmed violently and started drinking
but back to the point
i can't go on i really really really can't it's beyond crisis point now
the conselling is not working... nothing will change my reality. life has just played one sick joke too many on me and now the nightmares are infecting my reality it's all closing in on me everythin around me is piling up just waiting to strike the finishing blow not that it's necessary i'm already as dead as the world i live in already my pulse is just a formality
everything feels wrong.....dead when i look at it even things look different darker paler more dead i've tried to escape from reality as much as possible but those that dont understand keep trying to drag me back like it is what's best for me and now my only escape is temporarily gone and i'm left to think
of course as soon as that happened i instantly started thinking and lo and behold i self harmed violently and started drinking
but back to the point
i can't go on i really really really can't it's beyond crisis point now
the conselling is not working... nothing will change my reality. life has just played one sick joke too many on me and now the nightmares are infecting my reality it's all closing in on me everythin around me is piling up just waiting to strike the finishing blow not that it's necessary i'm already as dead as the world i live in already my pulse is just a formality