well it's finally happened

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by spyke, Jan 3, 2010.

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  1. spyke

    spyke Well-Known Member

    after everything i've suffered through and struggled with finally i can't escape the toll and the price....my minds beginning to snap......

    everything feels wrong.....dead when i look at it even things look different darker paler more dead i've tried to escape from reality as much as possible but those that dont understand keep trying to drag me back like it is what's best for me and now my only escape is temporarily gone and i'm left to think

    of course as soon as that happened i instantly started thinking and lo and behold i self harmed violently and started drinking

    but back to the point

    i can't go on i really really really can't it's beyond crisis point now

    the conselling is not working... nothing will change my reality. life has just played one sick joke too many on me and now the nightmares are infecting my reality it's all closing in on me everythin around me is piling up just waiting to strike the finishing blow not that it's necessary i'm already as dead as the world i live in already my pulse is just a formality
     
  2. Bambi

    Bambi Well-Known Member

    Hey I just read your post are you still on? I am here if you need someone to talk to...sounds like your in a really bad space and I would like to help if I can..well hope you are safe and you are alright...you can PM if you would like..
     
  3. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    I know how overwhelmingly strong it feels. I wish I could offer something real. But wanted you to know atleast someone out there does understand :arms:
     
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hey its hard i know dam hard sometimes almost unbearable but hang in there okay. The pain will pass then you will be so tired youwon't care about anything. Just hang in okay you can fight this just stick here with us your life is not over yet it just feels that way there will be days that are more bearable just hang in.
     
  5. spyke

    spyke Well-Known Member

    i already sleep most of the day and i know exactly where all this will lead to i'm not the person i was like i said everything is dead to me and i'm dead to everything.... all that's left is for me to exist for a while til i've mentally prepared myself for what's needed to be done
     
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