Hey, it's ok. You're not being annoying. You're just really emotional about this.
Do you think it would help to tell your parents how you are feeling? Not everyone has a relationship with their parents that allows them to confide in them, but maybe?
I wonder if you could make a recording saying those things and listen to it.
Hugs. Everything is going to be ok.
Do you think it would help to tell your parents how you are feeling?
Oh, I’m trying to be as quiet as I can about this. I’m really good at hiding my feelings irl. I don’t think that they notice.
I hate to think how you'd react if you did do something worse - not that I think you would do anything seriously bad like kidnap someone - but sometimes people do slide down a slippery slope. You could look at getting caught as having a positive aspect, in that the stress you've experienced is a very strong deterrent to doing anything more serious in future that really could have a very bad effect on your life. Bear this in mind when you meet the police if they appear stern or harsh.
To be honest I’m scared to even imagine the stuff I’d feel if I’d done anything that is more serious than this, not that I would EVER do that. Anyways, I espect the police to use some kind of ”scare-tactics” under the meeting. That involves being very harsh with me, which I’ll respond to with even more guilt. They’ll want me out of there by the minute I come in just because of how much I’ll repeat the word ”regret”. It is now almost 4 am here, and all I’ve done is staring into a wall thinking about ALL the possible scenarios and outcomes from the meeting. I also, visit SF and blink... occasionally 😂 Sorry, the lack of sleep is getting to me at these hours. I’m just really really really stressed, that’s all. Goodnight, expect to hear from me again sometime... when I once again, go absolute batshit crazy about this whole thing.