Hey, this is my first post here so I figured I'd start out by giving my background story on here. I'm 18 right now and have been depressed more or less since I was 15. Nothing is really bad in my life, nothing that should make me feel as bad as I do, but I still get these black moods I can't explain and can't shake. When I was 16 I od'd on a bunch of prescription meds with pretty much no result. Spent 2 weeks sitting in a psych ward and ended up leaving feeling pretty good. I was feeling depressed off and on but didn't make any more attempts on my life until this past week. I had just had the most wonderful night with my new gf the night before but felt like I had no reason to live, I don't know why. I swallowed a bottle of extra strength aspirin and drank a lot of alcohol, whatever I could find in the house. About a half hour later I threw up and did so for the next ten hours until my mom found me passed out in the bathroom. She took me to the hospital where I spent a week hooked up to an iv giving me meds trying to clean my liver. I still have more tests left to be taken but it doesn't look good right now. Sitting in the hospital I didn't think I'd ever try it again but just 3 days later it's already crossing my mind again. Well, that's my story.