My therapist hardly even looks at me. He stares are the forms he has on his computer. Now, if it were notes he was taking I'd actually consider it helpful, but his whole body language is dismissive of me. It certainly seems like either he hates his job or that he doesn't know what the fuck he's doing. And I don't know if it's because I don't have an official diagnosis yet, getting that on Wednesday. but it feels like he doesn't know how to deal with me. It seems like he expects me to know what kind of treatment I need. WHY WOULD I BE THERE IF I COULD TREAT MYSELF?! I want to scream at him sometimes. But they post all over there walls that anyone who they feel threatens the people there will be arrested, and if I raise my voice at all I'm afraid they're going to think I"m aggressive and a threat. How the fuck is anything supposed to get done if I don't even fucking feel comfortable there?