I was actually starting to meet some new online buddies on a support site for my Social Anxiety that I was on. I had a rough start on that site in the past but was giving it another try. I thought I was blending in for a bit until I got ran off the site & nearly banned from it for being "hasty & negative". A lot of people on there were telling me to sort out my depression & negativity issues before even discussing my Social Anxiety on there cause people on there are looking to be positive & that I was being a bad influence on them. A lot of them don't have it as bad as I do it seems like.. They're like regular people with just a bit of issues. I'm just completely fucked. I'm a pessimistic person. I LOVE to rant and don't even try to discuss positive things & be positive anymore cause it always turns out to be so fuckin' cheezy & pointless in the end. I hate discussing positive stuff actually.. I just love to rant to much cause the friends I've had for a while now love it as well & go along with me. Thats something that just makes me happy.. Being able to find others that share the same negatives as me & just ranting with them about it. Everyone acts like you're the devil if you don't like kids, have a negative outlook on life, love to rant, etc. Perhaps I am the devil? Nah.. I don't try to kill anything or anybody. So why the hell do I have to be like this? Why can't I just want to become a more positive person? Why do I love being negative & bitchy? Nobody else loves it hardly. I really just need to get that gun already and die. I'm so fuckin sick of living that it isn't funny...
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