ive been doing a lot of thinking lately, and i think its just time for me to go. no matter how hard i try, im still a failure, and everyone hates me. its just gotten to a point where i dont know what to do anymore. ive lost all motivation to get better. so now its come down to planning on how im going to end my life. but im so scared though.im not really sure how do it so its successful, im afraid of screwing up and making my life even worse, which right now doesnt seem quite possible. its just rock bottom. i really just dont seee any way out of it right now. im not sure when its going to be. but soon i hope. i dont know how much longer i can last... ive put this off for way too long. and everything is the same as it was before, nothings changed. im completely messed up, its just better for everyone else if i was to be gone.it really is.