I posted my feelings on here weeks ago, saying that I was suffering. Complaining that my life had nothing to offer me, that no one loved me... A girl that I was friends with in high school died three days ago. Lauren xxx, at 18 years old, made one stupid decision behind the wheel of a car and now her life is over. Done. Her family will never hug her again. She will never get to go to college. There seems to be an odd amount of death lately with Sean xxx and Sarah xxx... in May... they were also two friends in high school and Sean was possibly one of the greatest people I will ever meet in the time that I have left on this earth. And then xxx... my xxx... my love... I just don't know how to grasp the concept of two 19 year olds, a 20 year old, and an 18 year old all dying not only within months of each other, but with so much life left in them. What kind of sick and twisted fucking sadistic god would kill four people who wanted to live, who could have made this world a better place, and leave me, someone who can't even begin to appreciate life, living? It seems unfair. God, please just let me go into that abyss next time... don't save me anymore when I feel like dying. Let someone else keep their life.