well..

[cult logic]

I'm not entirely sure what it is that I want to say.

I have around 11 months before I can kill myself and that is just too long.

I don't really know what to do the in the meantime. I hate my life so much but I can't pull some ineffective attempt that will end in the hospital or something else stupid.

I have not one reason to keep living.

And you know what? It doesn't matter, the world doesn't care and I'm past the point of really caring myself. Life goes on and all that.

Doesn't really seem to be a reason to even post this but whatever I guess.

 

[Rukia]

I care :hug:

 

[total eclipse]

I care as well so please stay strong okay reach out for help i care so please stay safe

 

[cult logic]

Does it really matter if anyone cares?

Especially on an anonymous internet forum?

My life still is just as terrible either way.

In the end I'm sure most of us are probably better off dead..

 

[Forgotten_Man]

Why not try to find something to do? You never know you may find something that will make those 11 months just fly by.

 

[cult logic]

No activity passes a year quickly.

 

[jxdama]

Does it really matter if anyone cares?

Especially on an anonymous internet forum?

My life still is just as terrible either way.

In the end I'm sure most of us are probably better off dead..

it matters

 

[cult logic]

Bullshit.

 

[Forgotten_Man]

I am just saying that having something to do will help move time along. Faster then staring at a clock will.

 

[WildCherry]

I agree with Jxdama. I think it does matter that people care. Maybe not to everyone ... and to you this might just be an anonymous forum on the Internet. But to people that have made connections here ... chats off the site, on the phone, or even met in person ... it matters.

I guess it all depends on what you're looking for, and if you have the desire to connect with people even though we're just on a message board.

 

[Forgotten_Man]

@WildCherry: I completely agree

 

[jxdama]

we should agree/

 

[satyesu]

Get in an extracurricular. Find groups on meetup.com. Play a sport. DO something! You'll find you can still find life meaningful.