Well today I went to my first counseling session, and I hope you guys can give me some advice and opinions on it. She was nice, and I guess I was able to pretty much open up to her. I admitted my suicidal feelings, the panic attacks I have been having, feeling like I am the loneliest person in the world and other things. In some ways it seemed she was herself making up stuff so she could relate with me. Has anyone ever had that happen before? Also, after I mentioned the suicide and panic attacks I thought she would send me to a psychiatrist so he could put me on somekind of medication. Is it normal that she did not, or normally do they wait and see how things progress before they put you on any medication? The one thing I feared did happen, and I did not like. I think I asked her why do I feel like this, and her response was "Because you do not have God in your life". She said I could have either christian counseling or I forgot what she called the other, but it is counseling without religion being involved. But she did say if I chose the christian counseling over the other that I would become better much faster than if I chose the other. What do you guys think about this part, please give me some advice on it. She gave me like a home work sheet with things I need to do, and one of them was go to church. Tell me what you think. Should I give it another try? Should I just be upfront and say I do not want the christian counseling. She brought up the bible a few times. Thanks everyone.