I can remember the exact moment my life went downhill and become a living hell. Before that, I was happy and had pretty much everything I wanted. Contrasting my life now against what is was back then kills me. I hate to see what I've become. My former self would be so ashamed of me. Knowing that I can't return to what I once had is the worst suffering of all. Knowing that no matter how good my life gets now it will still always be second best to how it was before... What about other people on this forum? Were you ever happy once?