Hi. Just call me Anne, I'm from Asia. Some of you might know how Asian families are, totally close and stuff... I dont want that at all. many times i just feel like screaming. my mom is my main problem, she's too old fashioned, too strict, too selfish, too self-righteous. is it mean to say i hate her????? i wasnt even allowed to have a boyfriend. when i was on highschool, she listens when im at the phone. we're really not okay. i havent told her i love her for like i dont know how long, and same as she. when the days are forgiving, she's okay and nice and the other times its jsut HELL. and i know its not worth it. im damned. she controls my life and i dont want to be controlled and frankly i want to pack up and leave. but if i do, that means, im going to leave this life i was so used to, my sisters, brothers and everything behind too. but im so sick of everything already!! we cant talk decently, because i (& most of my siblings) am afraid that she might scream at us and get angry resulting to her blood pressure springing up. she has hypertension so that's one of the reasons i cant oppose her because if i did and she had a heart attack then i they may blame me. she's really pissed at my pet cat now. she says she hopes that cat gets lost one day, and she wont even allow him inside the house. im afraid she'll one day let my cat out our gate or give it away while im not at home and i'll lost him. mom's that mean. am i over reacting??? is her actions normal???? should i lost my cat??? why does she need to do that?? my cat isnt doing anything that will cause trouble or will bother her. i want to leave. but where will i go.... im not sure im ready .... i hate her!! P.S. sorry for the wrong spelling/grammar, im really unstable now. been crying.