Alcohol seems to be a big issue for me. I´m not a traditional addict, I only drink occasionally. But when I do drink, I drink like there is no tomorrow, and I cant stop. I cant behave properly, and I wake up ashamed. Always the shame. I fell off again last night, and now my actions are haunting me.. My friends say I´m a fun drunk. I say I´m a horrible, unhappy person, who tries to hide behind the bottle. I act up. I do stupid things. I´m an ass. I hate it. Alcohol gives me freedom, and takes away my dignity..