**might trigger** What am I doing here and what is 'good in life' Thats what I say to myself, I am mostly here because I get very very sad sometimes...but normally I'm always depressed which is a shame because I used to be so happy and 'fun to be with' evidently I still am but I'm not happy dammit! I always think I'm wasting my life. I alsway think I should be doing something more or something excipting or spending it with different people and I don't like how its turned out and no one gives a shit. The depression always finds a way to 'get me.' I just want it to end.