I am so angry. I don't know what to do with how I feel. I am angrey at my dad for the years of physcial and sexual abuse. I couldn't even admit that he even sexual abused me until very resuntly. I am angery that I used to have to hide in closests. I am angry at my cousin for 4 years of abuse. I am angery that when I told my mom she did nothing about it, and continued to have him babysit me. I am so angery. I am so hurt. I feel like what the hell did I do wrong. I am angery that when I was a teenager I put myself in situtaions where men would just not except no. I am angery at the new memories I got this week. I am so hurt. I can't stop crying. What is wrong with me??? WHY I don't understand WHY? I feel like maybe this is all not true, although deep down I know it is. I don't know how to except this. Please some one tell me what to do with myself I don't know I can't stop crying. I can't stop hurting so bad.