Pain every day. Loneliness, worthlessness, self-hatred, no drive. Been forcing myself to go out and do more, hoping I could feel human if I was around other people or could get myself to like something, anything. There's just no enjoyment from anything anymore, even eating is just a daily chore so I don't lose even more weight.
How can I get myself to like things? It seems everyone is just incredulous towards the idea that there could be anyone out there who doesn't like anything, and just tells me to keep looking, that I haven't found the "right thing". Meanwhile, there is no one source of pleasure that all the normal people had to scour the earth for, they have a myriad of things they love to do. I can't even find a reason to live. I want to, but it just sucks too much ass.
I don't get how I'm supposed to beat this. I feel hopeless and worthless because I can't do anything, I can't do anything because of disabilities, depression, and plain lack of motivation, and as long as I'm depressed I can't experience any pleasure at all. There's just no way out. :sad:
How can I get myself to like things? It seems everyone is just incredulous towards the idea that there could be anyone out there who doesn't like anything, and just tells me to keep looking, that I haven't found the "right thing". Meanwhile, there is no one source of pleasure that all the normal people had to scour the earth for, they have a myriad of things they love to do. I can't even find a reason to live. I want to, but it just sucks too much ass.
I don't get how I'm supposed to beat this. I feel hopeless and worthless because I can't do anything, I can't do anything because of disabilities, depression, and plain lack of motivation, and as long as I'm depressed I can't experience any pleasure at all. There's just no way out. :sad: