So let me tell you my story. When i was young at home there was a lot of argueing between my parents which was upseting for me at such a young age and unable to understand what was happening. This was something that would happen quite rarely i think im not exactly sure, i have a bad memory. At school i was happy because i had friends and i enjoyed going there. I was very quiet however and only talked to my friends. I found it frightening to talk to people i didnt no for some reason. So things were not too bad but one day we bought a computer and i started playing computer games which was something i enjoyed because it keeped me entertained and busy. So thats what i did all the time when i was at home. I moved from game to game until i reached a new type of game called a MMORPG. MMORPG games are the most addictive games created i think and i played them for long hours every day. But i was very addictived and it was something i would think about when i was at school and i played it every day. One day my parents wanted to move to a new city and they quickly decided we would move but i didnt protest or do anything because i was do busy playing my MMORPGs. So we moved to a new city where i had no school for like 3 months or longer which meant i played MMorpgs more and more to control my time. But by this time i was playing for longer and i would stay up later playing them. When i started school i didnt no anyone but i made some friends who were the wrong people to make friends with because they made fun of me in some ways and made me upset. They did this because generally i was boring since i talked about nothing and pretty much had a boring personality. After 2 years of this i got outa this mess because i made some new friends. (Not sure if they wanted to be friends or just felt sorry for me). Well anyways after this i was happier but not happy :/. I didnt talk much and had pretty much lost my identity and lost my self. Meanwhile i played MMORPGS more and more. At this point i was tottally depressed i really didnt care about school work or anything but i think i was quite intelligent and could have done very well if i had tried. After 2 years passed and i took my exams i felt that i should stop these bad thoughts of death and try to pick my self up so i quitted playing MMORPGS and decided to make something of my self. I tried and failed. Socially i am dead because i pretty much have nothing to say all the time so i am considered boring. ( This is a problem i have been trying to solve for the last 3 years so dont tell me to try!. wtf do you think i have been trying to do) Education/Work - The past exams had totally ruined by chances of going to a good quality university which means i will have to lower my Dreams and my hopes and i will never be able to achieve what i wanted anymore. Family - A lot better but still arguements and all that crap. My eyesight is now really bad along with my body which is deformed. So how do i get my self outa this mess?. Got any ideas or is it the time to throw in the towel?. The biggest blow to me is the fact that i cant make friends and talk to people like a normal person i am a "Broken" person and i have to destroy my Dreams and Hopes because those 2 years i went through.