I had a normal life up until I was 12... then I fell ill (in/out of hospital most days) and due to this had to drop out of school. At 18 I was well enough to be 'normal' again, but by this time I'd lost contact with everyone and was so cripplingly shy I've just hidden away at home ever since. Now I'm 21, ugly, short (5' 5"), have no confidence, no friends, never had a job, never had a girlfriend, can't drive, and still live at home. It takes me all my energy to force myself to get up in the mornings and in the daytime I can't motivate myself to do anything. What can I do to try and meet people? What do people talk about? I can say "hi" to people... and then just awkward silence. If anyone has any suggestions on how someone like me can try to get my life back on track before I give up completely please do let me know.