I'm going through such a rough time right now that I can barely keep my head above the water. I feel like giving in at times and it terrifies me, but continuing to put up with this crap is just as scary. I was abused growing up (even now I hesitate to admit to that 'cause no one in my family would believe me) and it just hasn't seemed to stop. At first, I could handle it. Then one day back in high school, my brother took it a little too far and it started me down this path. My mom hasn't given two shits about me since I was nine and it's steadily gotten worse; I can't do a freaking thing right in her eyes and if anything goes wrong/isn't done, it's automatically my fault and no amount of evidence will prove otherwise. She turned a blind eye when my brother started to hit me and if I complained or cried, I had obviously done something to set him off so she yelled at me some more. My friends don't really care about me now, so I guess I can't call them "friends", huh. The only two I could confide in are kinda outta the picture, one moved four hours away and the other is always working and has been sick for the past week or two. I just... Most of my coworkers dislike me, especially the GM, and my mom hates me - scratch that, most of my family hates me. It's all being bottled up inside and I'm afraid it's gonna break free. I can't even go to a therapist or go get diagnosed with depression 'cause I'm a liar in my mom's eyes. I will say that I think this site may just be my life saver; I'll admit that I actually cried when I found it.