Recently I have been feeling uncontrollably depressed again. A few years back I had gone through a prestigious college, yet I didn't try hard and accomplished "nothing" ever since. Every step of the way I tried to adjust for my lack of effort during school. I got a job as a paramedic straight after graduation with decent pay and good coworkers. I had a stable relationship with a lovely girl for 7 years now. I recently got into respiratory therapy school, something I convinced myself I wanted. I should be happy by all means, but I am not at all. It has gotten worse now that I stopped talking to my co workers. I feel like such a failure all the time. I am too young and I don't have the resources or will to seek professional help. Please let me know what some of you do to get through these negative overwhelming emotions.