I have tried to end it 2x properly but didn't work out how I wanted - didn't realise taht by taking an overdose i wouldnt just go to sleep and excuse the wording but wake up dead. So now I am looking in to other things. Something that wont cause me anymore pain than i am already in as cant take anymore. One thing I know for sure is that I can't carry on like this anymore. I have been told to take things one day at a time but for how long can I carry on like this. It has been over a yr that I have felt like this and it has driven my friends and partner away. Only my partner and 2 friends know about the overdoses. And even then my boyfriend doesnt know the true extent of things. I can't confide in anyone. I have seen a counsellor who says I need to do things for myself but what if I cant - I dont have the strength I really cant see a way out. I go from happy to crying - I'll be laughing or happy at something like england winning today but then I'll end up in tears and dont know why. Am I losing it. I come on here as I can say what I want and there is no one that knows me and I find that easier. I cant talk to anyone about things I am a closed book. One thing I do know is that I can't dp this anymore!